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Jett Superior laid this on you on || January 25, 2001 || 2:39 pm

Maybe it’s because I am trying to kick the Mountain Dew (proudly manufactured and distributed by PepsiCo) habit. Well, not so much trying to kick it as tame it, get it back under control. Rein it in to where it’s supposed to be, so that I don’t feel like I could hock up a phlegmmy gob when I explore notes in my upper register. We’ll discuss my minimal smoking habit at a later date, THANKS. Ahem.

Anyway, maybe it’s the whole less caffeine thing that is making me so introspective/retrospective/reflective the past few days. I am all wild thoughts and barely-restrained self. I am all nervy and raw, like I could jump out of my skin if someone brushes against me. I am all pent up and ready to burst out with a cacophony of words and tears and muted reckonings that should have been dealt long ago.

What do you say to someone when you realize that, due to your ignorance of their past condition or your lack of wisdom or consciousness on a higher plane or whatever, you neglected to say some things to them that you really, REALLY should have? How do you approach that? DO you even approach the subject(s) at hand? Do you lay it to rest in your own heart and head and spirit by putting it out there, and hope that it brings them comfort and a sense of gladness for just having known after all this time? Do you let it go where they are concerned for fear of setting some grief or hurt or regret ablaze? You know you will forever continue to carry it around, piling the everydayness on top that will help it shut the fuck up for a time (until it comes roaring forth again) or maybe –just maybe, if good fortune and mercy prevail– GO AWAY…. What do you do, oh, WHATthefuckDO YOU DO???

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Can someone please tell me just why it is that there is a song by U2 attached to every single person that I have ever in my life felt very passionately about? If by some slim chance you see this, AF, this one is yours….

If you twist and turn away

If you tear yourself in two again

If I could, yes I would

If I could, I would

Let it go

Surrender

Dislocate

If I could throw this

Lifeless lifeline to the wind

Leave this heart of clay

See you walk, walk away

Into the night

And through the rain

Into the half-light

And through the flame

If I could through myself

Set your spirit free

I’d lead your heart away

See you break, break away

Into the light

And to the day

To let it go

And so to fade away

To let it go

And so fade away

I’m wide awake

I’m wide awake

Wide awake

I’m not sleeping

Oh, no, no, no

If you should ask then maybe they’d

Tell you what I would say

True colors fly in blue and black

Bruised silken sky and burning flag

Colors crash, collide in blood shot eyes

If I could, you know I would

If I could, I would

Let it go…

This desperation

Dislocation

Separation

Condemnation

Revelation

In temptation

Isolation

Desolation

Let it go

And so fade away

To let it go

And so fade away

To let it go

And so to fade away

I’m wide awake

I’m wide awake

Wide awake

I’m not sleeping

Oh, no, no, no

U2, “Bad”

Nobody worked it out »

Don´t be shy. Lay it on me.

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