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Jett Superior laid this on you on || October 1, 2008 || 10:08 pm

company meeting

Hello, precious and lively Muffinasses. One of the best features of living on the last mountain in the Appalachian chain is that you can drive a few minutes out of town, wander into a stand of trees and scream your fool fucking head off when life gets to be A Little Too Much.

Yesterday, my friend Suze lost her mother to cancer.
Della has been battling the beast for a couple years now, but she took a sharp turn for the better back in March and we were all very, very hopeful. Then a couple of weeks ago it was reported that she only possessed function in one lung because the other was one white mass of tumor on film. All in all, she has survived far longer than anyone is supposed to with her ratio of cancer to healthy tissue; it was enmeshed in several regions of her body. We love this family so much, we Superiors. Our children are the same ages and we all just have so much fun together. Suze and her husband have vacationed with us (not something we would even ask some of our own kin to do), dined with us countless times, helped us gut and reconfigure our Brady-style home. They are beautiful and compassionate people of great heart: Not one time throughout her mother’s illness have I seen Suze shed even a single tear. She drove her mother back and forth for treatment over an hour each way, every other day for most of this year and never once have I heard her complain or fret. “I’m fine, I’m just fiiiiine,” she told me just today, “Just see about Mina and the girls, okay?”

Which brings me to my friend Mina, whose three teenage daughters are close friends of Sam and Scout’s. Their father, forty-five, died on my lunch break today; it was a horrible and racking process over the course of this week. I don’t want to belabor too many of the details, but it was a sweet hot mess there at the very end and those babies and their momma are several kinds of wrecked right now.

I am thankful that Maxim had taken the day off today, because for a good portion of my lunch hour(s) we just sat, holding hands, while he made me laugh over and over again. I cannot explain the kind of lonely I would be if I had to know life without him. Who else knows that I sleep easier with a hand resting lightly at the base of my throat? Who else could talk me down from the ledge of myself without breaking a sweat? Who else could do the chicken dance for me at six-thirty in the morning without acquiring a mortal wound from me, a prime example of Not Really A Morning Person?

After I came back from lunch, I was putting a patient I’d not seen in a few months on a table when she let a wince of pain slip. When I inquired as to her well-being, I was met with the news that she was fresh off a double mastectomy and reconstuction. I’d no idea why she’d been away from us for so long; I guess it was diagnosed and dealt with just that quick.

“Well,” I said, “I can’t tell you how glad I am to see you. You look really great.” And then I snuck back to the x-ray room to drop some saltwater for a minute.

As some of you people know, this sort of business just wrecks my contacts, so I’ll be sporting my glasses over the next couple of days. Something else I’ll be doing is taking a little bit of a break from posting here. The events of the last handful of days, coupled with some health issues I’ve been dealing with for a few weeks, have left me feeling drained and resolved to use what good energy I’ve got going for me toward shoring my friends up (and maybe writing nutty comments on the posts of others).

Another something I’ll be doing is asking a few people that a) you might not have read yet and b) I’ve been spending a little time visiting to step in and throw some words at you to see if they stick. In eight years of doing this voyeurnal thing, I’ve only had dog-and-pony guest posting ‘events’ a couple of times. It’s always turned out really well

(oh God, please do reference this VidBlog posted by theDane during my trip to Scotland…I don’t give a fuck what the rest of Cyberia tells you, the birth of the VidBlog happened one afternoon many, many years ago while theDane and I were on the phone talking about one of my audblog posts. He mentioned that he’d like to do a VidBlog, whereupon I let out a wild whoop of encouragement. Thus, blogging in video format. And nobody seems to recognize theDane was doing it before anybody else. BOO, very BOO.)

and I have no expectations of anything different this time around. I will communicate in as convincing a fashion as possible that if there’s any letting out of a wild hair to be done, there’s no place more suited to that sort of thing than the site you’re squatting on right now. Everybody put on your rhumba panties, let’s dance!

Me, I’ll be sitting sidestage, making sure all the pulleys and knobs get yanked and twirled in the appropriate places. And I’ll be smiiiiling, all chill, because luckily all this stuff fell in my lap at the beginning of medication week. Who says the universe ain’t on my side? Not me, that’s who.

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  1. The Stiletto Mom 10.2.2008

    Your week definitely topped my week. Death is a horrible thing to deal wlith but at least I had a drugged up relative to keep our mind of what we really should have been thinking of.

    I am so sorry to hear about your losses, your poor friends! I’d be crying my eyes out right along with you if I was there.

    Thanks for stopping by my blog…I plan on adding you to my list of people I annoy with comments on a semi regular basis.

    Take care of yourself while you are taking care of everyone around you!

  2. Seaweed 10.2.2008

    I feel your pain and I think you know how I mean. Have a nice break, we’ll be around. And instead of watching the VP debate in ten minutes, I just want to watch that vidblog over and over. It’s hysterical and addictive.

  3. Carolyn...Online 10.3.2008

    I’m so sorry to hear about both of these. It’s so hard to lose someone even when you kow it’s coming. You get so drained at the knowing and the waiting and the helping. And then *poof* they’re gone.

    I hope you take all the time you need to feel re-energized.

  4. that girl 10.10.2008

    I’m so sorry about your friends – and your health issues. It seems like too much all at once.


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